From Pregnancy Journal Archive (Week 5 thru Week 7)

** Reminder... this is from my pregnancy back from July 2009 - March 2010.
Since I've missed quite a bit (life as always has been crazy which I will talk about in a different posting) I've put up three journal entries from my pregnancy journal

I do want to remind you that some of these pregnancy journal postings can be quite personal so don't be too shocked...

Week 5 (Aug 4, 09)7 Weeks

Today is Week 5 day 2...

My breasts are getting so big! Wow! I had no idea that they grow so fast which sucks because I just bought new bras two weeks ago and I can't even fit in them comfortably... I'm starting to bulge out! However, even though they are getting big they don't seem to be tender or maybe as tender as they were before. That is starting to scare me because that was the first sign that I had that I was losing the baby. I'm trying not to think about it and just going with the flow of things... it is my new motto... "go with the flow" along with "taking it one day at a time".
I started to take a look at some maternity clothes just to get a feel of when people typically start to buy them and how they cost and all. It gets me excited but I have been restraining myself to go forward because the last thing I need is new maternity clothes to later find out that I lost the baby... I definitely don't need another reminder of a failed pregnancy. So I have put it on hold... not like a bad thing but as a way to ummm... damage control I suppose. Hopefully I'll be able to go maternity shopping along with blabbing to everyone that we are pregnant!
I haven't told anyone... well that isn't true... I have told a few but at least it is a much smaller number to manage then last time. It is so hard because you want to share the great news and your stories with all your loved ones. We are waiting until the 1st trimester is over and then we will spread the news so I still have 7 more weeks... Wow that sounds like a lot to spread good news but it will be worth it. A new found friend who has a one year old loves to talk about her experience when she was pregnant and I honestly love to hear them. I typically can't wait until the next time I see her to hear more... to compare notes (in my head) and to have an idea of what to expect soon enough (hopefully).


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Week 6 (Aug 12, 09)7 Weeks

Today is week 6 day 2

Well I gave in... I bought a ton of shelf bra tanks - it feels good to have something that allows "them" to be free and not so tight and in my face. ahhh.... I also bought a pair of maternity jeans so that I can wear them in a few weeks for camping and all since my pants are already starting to feel tight around my belly (no where else thank goodness). They just arrived today but I haven't tried them on yet. I'm almost afraid too - again I don't want to get overly excited (which is so what I would normally do) before the first prenatal appt but if I waited until then I would have had to spend more money since I had coupons and there was a sale and you know... yeah.

I've been feeling a bit down lately, probably the hormones getting the best of me but I have been trying so hard to think positive and think of cute and cuddly things to prepare myself and peanut. Talking about peanuts, this week the baby is the size of a lentil. How can something the size of a lentil cause so much craziness in one person! Goodness they are strong! I have still been experiencing insomnia but no morning sickness. I have had to get up more often at night to go to the bathroom. All of this makes me think about how difficult it will be when we are camping for a week in Tahoe. Camping in Tahoe is my favorite time of the year, we go every year during Labor Day Weekend. I keep thinking about how am I going to get to sleep out there if I have insomnia now with my comfy bed and how am I going to manage the multiple bathroom breaks. Sigh, I'm sure it will be fine but I still think about it especially since only 4 other people who are going will know that I am pregnant out of a group of 18.

Think about it being 4 people at camping who know... let me see who does know at this time... hmm... Jacques, Tan, Nikki, Susie, Katie, my mom, Donna, and Diana (from work)... yup that's it... well other than my gym trainer and my chiropractor for obvious reasons. Wow, I applaud myself... that actually isn't too bad since I just went to a number of parties with many of our friends and relatives have been to. At least it is a smaller group of people to tell if there is bad news... you know what.... WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! I will be fine is what my attitude should be like... that's it... from now on we are looking at this pregnancy for the long haul... this peanut is going to grow to be a fantastically beautiful and very healthy and happy baby! Ahh... that feels so good to say that.

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Week 7 (Aug 18, 09)7 Weeks

Week 7, Day 2

Here we are again. You must be thinking what do you mean again?? Well, tomorrow is my first prenatal appointment and if you remember I was pregnant only a few months ago and here.. at 7 weeks in... was when I had my first prenatal appointment for that pregnancy. There are though quite a few differences between this pregnancy and that pregnancy. For starters, I feel much better (I was terribly ill the last time around), I have been exercising before and during this one, and I am trying much harder not to stress out so that peanut is in a happier place.

Am I nervous about tomorrow's appointment, you bet I am! I just want to hear those magic seven words, that isn't too much to ask for - right? The - baby - is - healthy - and - looking - great. I want to look at that ultrasound screen tomorrow and see a chillin' growing peanut. I do have a bunch of questions (of course) for the doctor but this time I want to wait until I see peanut before I ask - I don't want to get my hopes up even more to later find out there was a problem. I know I know, I'm not supposed to talk like that anymore but hey aren't moms supposed to be worried all the time, anyways?

For the past few weeks I kept thinking about this baby will be coming around so close the wedding, oh gosh... when I should be thinking... this is awesome! The baby will be here around the wedding! I will be a mom! wow, holy shit... did I just say that... MOM... me, wow, that is going to be something. I guess for someone who wants to one day be a psychologist what better way to gain some clinical experience other than from being a parent! Let's do this!

From Pregnancy Journal Archive (First Person Told (5 weeks))

** Reminder... this is from my pregnancy back from July 2009 - March 2010.

We decided this time around we didn't want to tell anyone until the 2nd trimester starts (which in this case is Sept 21, 09) since the last time it was hard enough for us to face that I had a miscarriage but to tell our friends and family was devastating. However I was planning on visiting Tan in mid August for the weekend and I didn't want to be hassled for 3 days about not drinking, not eating sushi (which is my favorite) and possibly by that time having huge boobs and a little show of tummy or maternity pants. So I thought I will just take a chance and tell Linda to see what her reaction would be. You see Tan is a selfish friend... no I am not talking behind her back... those are the exact words from her own mouth - selfish! She would prefer for me to wait a few years and all but to my great surprise Tan was so supportive and so positive I thought I was dreaming! It would have been nice to see her facial reactions but nonetheless it was great to talk her and tell her the news.

From Pregnancy Journal Archive (Week 4 (July 30, 09))

** Reminder... this is from my pregnancy back from July 2009 - March 2010.

warning: for some of you this stuff might be a bit... ugh... TMI but hey it's a pregnancy journal - what did you expect!?

Today is Thursday - I just found out that I am 4 weeks (and 4 days) pregnant on Monday! Is this real? Is this the one that will make it? I'm trying to stay cool and do what is right for the baby and myself but not dwell on the fact that the test didn't even wait for me to finish my business before it showed my a big blue plus sign. Jacques, the sweetheart he is, is also staying cool but I know that he wants this and I can't wait for both of us to celebrate some good news in 8 more weeks.
The symptoms have been different this time around. Maybe it is because I have been working out a lot before this pregnancy (and during) but I have no diahrrea. I do however feel tired ALL THE TIME but I can't sleep - I'm restless when I lie down. Maybe it is the napping... I didn't nap today so we will see what happens tonight. The other thing I noticed is that I have no desire to eat my strawberries. I LOVE strawberries but just the thought of them makes me - eek. So strange. I do want salty - devilled eggs, tortilla chips, crackers and meat... and more meat!

From Pregnancy Journal Archive (Positive Test - 4 weeks)

** Reminder... this is from my pregnancy back from July 2009 - March 2010.

So I just missed my period... it was supposed to start on July 22, 2009 and here we are - 5 days afterwards and I mention to Jacques that I should probably take a pregnancy test. So after work I pick Jacques up (like usual) and we head to the store and pick up some pregnancy tests along with my prescription for birth control pills.
As soon as I get through the garage door I run to the bathroom because I have been holding it so I can take the pregnancy test. Geez! The test didn't even wait to get more than a few drops on the stick and the plus sign is already starting to appear! I have never seen a pregnancy test give a result that fast before! I yell out "shit!" and Jacques laughs and says I guess you are pregnant huh? I laugh and we hug and look at each other to say... now what?

My pregnancy journal

Many readers (well the many of the few that I have) have asked about my pregnancy journal so I thought why not post the entries here...  so for the next week or so I will post an entry from my pregnancy journal for your reading pleasure. 

I had used aliases for my family and friends in the journal but I figured I should at least help you out by telling you the relationships of them all...
Jacques - husband
Nikki - my cousin (more like my little sister... she was only here while in school)
Tan - one of my best friends who moved away (we had odd nicknames for each other)
Susie - Nikki's old dorm mate who turned out to be a good friend of both of ours
Donna - one of my friends that was pregnant around the time I was but about 3 months ahead

If I have missed any feel free to point them out.


Here is the first one...
Missed Period (3 weeks)

I was feeling so out of it and I kept thinking it was because I was working out 6 times a week and some days it was twice a day. I decided to take it easy after Jacques and Nikki persistently told me that I should. Then a few days after, right around the time I should have started my period, I mentioned the weird mood my body has been in to my nutritionist - Katie Adams and she simply asked the question - "could you be pregnant?"